Doubt

Below is a slight poem-ish (yes, I made that up :P ) thing I wrote a few months back. Let me know what you think :)

What is it that I see in your eyes today?

Is it shielded hate? or is it subdued anger?

... Is it loathe, or plain old disgust?

Is that snide glance accidental or are you saying what I can see?

Through those sugar laced conversations, I think I failed to see you

It’s like one of those beautiful graves you see

Pretty on those sunny days yet hiding a million secrets , lost in those forgotten minds and souls

I wish you would grant me my wish

To know you and understand you and not that alter ego of yours

The one which believes lying is enough for me

The one which thinks etiquette comes before the truth

The one which acts like everything is fine when beneath a million things are breaking down

For I don’t mind to know that I am a forgotten soul

And the pain of knowing the truth

For true pain is not knowing the truth ever

Having to doubt the way you speak

Having to care and not being sure you care back

And though I love this pretense you carry

The fabulously enacted role of having an inkling of love

And I love it more than the air I breathe

But that precious-as-air love doesn’t matter at all

When in a million pieces it shatters to show me

The snide glances and the doubts and the reality

A reality I hate, but rely on more than you

So be yourself

If that’s the only thing you could do

Simply, just be.

 


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I know, I know way too much rebellion and anger :P. I think I might have a thing for exaggerated emotional expression though :P

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